Things have been pretty stressful around here lately. Emotionally, I feel like I am being pulled in 12 different directions. On the inside, I feel sadness, anger and confusion. On the outside I try to stay positive, calm, supportive – whatever is needed of me. There are some days the battle going on inside me is too much and I want to go to sleep and wake up when the world is perfect.
To get through times like this I count my blessings, no matter how mundane. Yayyyyy I have access to clean water! I have a floor to vacuum and that floor is under a sturdy roof! I have a car to get me to the store in this horrible traffic so I can buy food for dinner with my family tonight! Yes, blessings are everywhere. I am truly thankful. But, though I grasp at the fleeting tethers of thankfulness, I’ve been struggling lately.
Early this morning I was sitting on our deck, having my coffee. I usually check social media first thing in the morning as the coffee brews, but when I’m in this kind of mood that isn’t always a good thing. After waking up with a cloud of worry hanging over me then reading through all the political opinions, religious oppositions and one-liner comments aimed at trying to prove a point about something, I was feeling more exasperated. I drank my coffee while contemplating all the troubles in the world, impending issues here at home, and the meaningless chores I have to get done today. (HAVE TO? not really)
Then something happened.
A visitor came to me with a message. A hummingbird hovered just a few feet away from me. Its eyes met mine as it seemed to be suspended only in hope and faith. Such a visit may not seem special to some. Small, insignificant events like this occur a million times a day, which certainly negates any suggestion this could be a special message from a divine messenger somewhere out there. But to me, it was a welcomed moment, and a message heard loud and clear.
Actually it reminded me of a verse from the bible, which I know is a highly offensive book to many, but I find beauty and inspiration in just about all religious and spiritual books, including the bible. (notice I wrote “just about all”, not ALL)
Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? Matthew 6:26 (KJV)
Some may loath this concept – how dare we put ourselves above animals or the smallest form of life? Isn’t it this egoism which has guided us down the path of destruction and leads us to deplete our natural resources? But I don’t interpret the verse (or supporting verses) to mean we own everything and have a right to use it all up for the sake of our own comfort. For me, that verse from Matthew tells us to behold the small miracles we see everyday and dismiss as unremarkable. These small events should give us comfort. If we see the natural balance in nature is for life to thrive and survive without worry, planning, anxiety or heaviness in heart, we will have comfort, peace and encouragement.
I beheld the humming-bird as it hovered only inches from me. In that moment I felt a surge of love. I felt a hand on me and heard a voice say “why worry?” Behold this marvelous, delicate creature in perfect balance with its environment. This small little creature is loved and provided for; it has no worries. That little visitor came to tell me to let go of things I can not control. I felt the burden of worry lifted from me.
I know most of you have deep love and appreciation of nature. You take the time to notice the small things. Many of you post lovely photos of your observations, which I always enjoy. I also know there must be times when all the noise and distraction in life diverts your attention from the beauty in this world.
Today, someone sent me a reminder that at this moment in my life, life goes on and all is well. Life goes on, and I am thankful to have had this moment today.
I just wanted to share it with you because perhaps you need to be reminded of this too. I share it with you to hopefully lift your spirits.
BTW the photo is not mine, it was taken from http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/
Things like this never happen when I have my camera close by and ready to shoot, but maybe there is a reason for that.
Have a great weekend.