Same Thoughts, Different Day

Hello again. I sincerely hope you are doing well. More than well actually; I hope you are doing fantastic! Whatever that may mean for you.

In doing my usual annual reevaluation of my purpose, goals, and all that other stuff I use to fill my time in this life, I came across a blog post from August 2017. Pre-Covid, pre all the recent events that have us all wondering if this is really the end of …. well, you know.

First, I do this annual self-reflection, reevaluation thing about once a year. It’s weird really. It isn’t a New Year thing as in making a New Year resolution. But it does seem to happen every year, either around my birthday or in spring. Around those times every year, I get struck by this overwhelming need to drop everything and completely reevaluate my current path in life. I won’t bore you with all the details. But, maybe you can relate a little bit?

This past year, I avoided any kind of reevaluating or self-reflection at all. Well, not really avoided, more like pushed the idea of all that away. I just didn’t feel like being bothered with it. What was the point? But, now here I am, reevaluating and self-reflecting, at the end of February of all times.

Now, honestly, I’ve made great progress in some areas of my life over the past couple of years. But as far as feeling compelled to share any of it? Well, that just felt like such an unbelievably useless, sad, difficult shore. For many reasons.

The main reason being I could never find the right way or time to make my reappearance after being out of the loop for so long. Technology has changed, and I’ve struggled to keep up. Attention spans are shorter, and the world is more crowded and louder. But honestly, I’m just tired. And I’m sure you can definitely relate to that.

Anyway. Here I am, attempting to jump back in and pick up where I left off. I’ll leave you with that post from 2017, because, it really says it all about why I truly struggle with being here in this crazy place where we all feel such a need to share. But sharing is good, right? It doesn’t have to be all about attention seeking, monetizing, shocking, or impressing does it? I like to think it can also be about finding community, sharing experiences that give us hope, bringing each other a little joy, and offering a little bit of encouragement to someone, somewhere without the underlying goal of going viral.

Thanks for reading!